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Michelle Williams Lived with "Blue Valentine" Costar Ryan Gosling While Making Breakup Drama: 'It Was Horrible'

LAN/Corbis via Getty Michelle Williams reflected on the break she and costar Ryan Gosling took in filming their 2010 dramaBlue Valentine The two actors played a married couple, who are documented falling in love and then out of love throughout the course of the film Williams opened up about the unique way she and Gosling prepared to film the challenging scenes Michelle Williamsexperienced heartbreak both on and off the screen while filming her 2010 dramaBlue Valentinealongside costarRyan Gosling. The Derek Cianfrance-directed film catalogues the love story of a married couple that unravels throughout the course of the movie. "We took a break in filming. We shot the first part when they're young and in love and everything's going really well," Williams shared on the May 19 episode of theArmchair Expertpodcast. "And then we took a two-week break, and we lived together." Clarifying that she and Gosling didn't live together full-time, Williams jokingly referred to it as "office hours, baby, like nine to five," calling it a "professional situation." Stephane Cardinale/Corbis via Getty "We did these improvisations during the day, honestly, to figure out ways to annoy each other," she explained. "And to destroy this thing that we had made." Originally, Williams shared that it wasn't in the plan to take the break but noted that the suggestion came after she and Gosling struggled to film scenes where their characters were at-odds after falling in love on screen. "We were having such a hard time letting go of the thing that we loved," she admitted. "Derek was like, 'We gotta mess this up, and we need to burn it down.' And we did a ceremonial burned our wedding photo." Williams said that "a lot" of the time was just her and Gosling together alone after Cianfrance would give them different scenarios to test out. Hunting Lane Films/Kobal/Shutterstock "And then he would say, after you've had this frustrating day, now you're gonna go take your daughter to the amusement park and try and have a good time," she recalled. "I don't know if anybody could work like that again. You've got a crew that's on hold. You're paying people I mean, it's such a small movie, so, so low budget and a small crew, but you're taking a big down period in the middle of the thing." "It was horrible," Williams said of the experience, admitting she had to fight her instinct to make Gosling like her. "I don't wanna give you reasons to hate me or, think I'm obnoxious," she explained. "We were having such a good time. The party has to be over so soon." Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE's free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. Armchair Experthost Dax Shepard asked Williams if she felt the "heartbreak" of the shift in their relationship. "Yeah. I really was," she said. "And I was younger then. It's a hard day at work for me now. I feel it, and I go through it, but I definitely know that I get to go home. I can really close the door on it. When I was younger, it would definitely seep under the door." It even had an effect on Williams' feelings about herself. "I was like, 'You don't have to hate me. Now I hate me because I'm annoying,' " she recalled. "And we are calling forth to all of our worst qualities, and now you can't hate me more than I hate myself." However, the hard work paid off, earning Williams an Oscar nomination for Best Actress in a Leading Role. Read the original article onPeople